I feel like this is going to be really bad

asldjdhskaldh i’m so confused holy crap

So this year started off terrible enough, I’m in love with my guy best friend, Cameron, who moved away. I was trying to get over him. Then I find out my BEST friend of ten years, Meena, is moving too. So I finally get over Cameron, but now I have to deal with the fact my last fried is moving away too. I get a boyfriend, Isaac. Okay cool great was my basic reaction. I never thought what we have would become such a huge thing, I was expecting a small fling & a quick goodbye. Nope, he falls in love with me. Or at least he thinks he’s in love with me, I don’t really know to be honest. Isaac and Meena become good friends, they talked all the time. Me & Isaac broke up, Meena still talked to him. Isaac & I end up getting back together a few weeks later. Him & I have been back together for almost a month now, & he’s just telling me that 1) Meena was hitting on him, 2) She directly said “let’s have sex. I don’t care if Starr finds out , I’m moving,” 3) She told him a story that should not have been told to anyone. It should have stayed between me, her & my ex-boyfriend. But she told him & he lie to me about her telling him. 4) She’s told him all these lies about me & how I have things with other guys & I’m just some whore.
I thought all this time I had a person who would be with me my entire life. I was wrong.
So back to Cameron, he tells me he’s been in love with me since he met me last night. That breaks my heart. Everything would be so different if I would’ve known.
& Isaac obviously doesn’t wanna be with me & I can tell he likes other girls & he’s not interested in me anymore…
I’m not okay. I’m not holy shit I’m just miserable


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The fact I have no type of self esteem & extreme trust issues ruins my mind set on my relationship

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I feel so sick to my stomach right now.

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